I’m up. My mind constantly runs numerous ideas through my head. Ideas that never seem to ever leave my thoughts. Why is that?
I never show my emotions. I never say anything. I just… keep it all inside. It’s been like that for awhile now. And honestly, I don’t know what’s the matter with me at the moment.
I can’t sleep. I can’t rest.
I feel like the smile I put out only blocks how I’m really feeling on the inside. Broken. I feel like things are going exactly to the way I planned them to. And I’m struggling. With everything.
Physically. Mentally. Stress. Frustration. Life. Words that can only subtly comprehend my state of mind.
I can’t help but think that life constantly throws you curve balls. And sometimes, you just have no idea how to deal with it. I’m looking for answers. Yet, it’s so hard to find it.
Is this to be our fate? Always wondering where we’ll end up? Who we are meant to become? What we are meant to accomplish? I feel like I can’t even grasp my own ambitions and aspirations anymore. I’m missing my motivation.
Maybe our lives are meant to be this way. Chaos. Yet, somehow everything falls into place again. Like the last missing puzzle piece. Like the times you realize this is where you’re mean to be.
Maybe it’s just me over-thinking. Maybe it’s just be venting. Or maybe, it’s just be searching for answers. And what I need.
I know I’ll find them. And I’ll be able to rest with ease.
Stay Hungry. Stay Humble.